Amanda continues...
"...also something else I've learned is that those who passinately want to serve Christ are a threat to the enemy. So if that is who you are, be prepared for an attack! But what it is in knowing that is the case!
Today, I would say my husband is not defeated, but victorious. He has developed much greater discernment for situations, things that could be traps from certain women. He communicates with me better, doesn't put himself in those situations that even appear compromising. He keeps to his boundaries. I am proud of him!
On the other hand, we still have our problems. We still need Christ in our marriage. And I still sometimes obsess over her...
To be honest I have been thinking alot about the fact that she has had a medical breakthrough when it appeared that God was gonna take her out as punishment for her many unrepented sins. Not only this, but she told my relative. Obviously she wanted us to get the message.
How can this be, God? At one time she is dependent on medicines and infusions and now... she is even, miraculously... healed. It hurts to even say it. The thing I held onto previously, was that she would eventually die. This pain and suffering would go away when she did. It was a sense of hope to me, even. I was going to exhale a sigh of relief when she passed and maybe even attend the funeral, leave some flowers.
I wonder now if she has truly repented but cannot take the chance of finding out. This situation was just too severe to risk drawing her back into it by communicating with her.
I will have to leave this all in God's hands. I need prayer as it is still an ongoing issue..."
[In Amanda's next journal entry she will discuss the aspect of "Sally" acting like her best friend in order to get to her husband...]
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