Amanda continues...
"...this experience made me feel like I was being attacked from every angle and the floor pulled out from under me.
Also, I lost trust in ministers and leadership in general. I just felt like I wanted the Christ experience but not the fellowship during this time. If my pastor was gonna be buddy-buddy with my mortal enemy and laughing with her... It felt like he was supporting, condoning, helping and enabling her wicked behavior.
"Maybe that is why it seemed like the pressure was coming from all sides, because other people were involved. My pastor's wife even said, "You need to get over your jealousy if you are gonna be in ministry". No one seemed righteous to me. No one would step in and stand up and put their foot down and say, "Look, this is God's house and this behavior is WRONG! Stop!" [Daniel: I spoke up but it fell on deaf ears...] No, they turned a blind eye.
It was like we just left the situation disgraced and abused and harassed. I realize we left with alot of baggage from the situation undealt with. We did nothing wrong yet we left. Why? It was not right.
More later as I feel so inspired...
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