Sunday, April 5, 2009

Some issues that still concern Amanda today.

"Amanda should not be angry unless we are kissing in the fellowship hall", said Sally on day to Daniel on front of me. I felt anger that she was minimizing the problem: her lust.

All I could think was: she really wanted to kiss him in the fellowship hall. She really wanted to get physical with him. Her true desire was to get intimate with my husband... I thought.

She was on the pastor's good side so that made me think the enemy was coming in a three-pronged attack.

What do you do when your husband is using his gift of music and all this is happening? How do I tell him that he is gonna have to leave his job?

One time the pastor's wife came over to our house to try and help the situation. She told me a story of a sailor who cheated on his wife and got his girlfriend pregnant and then the wife found out and forgave her husband. After hearing this I did not feel better at all. I got the distinct feeling that I was being pressured to forgive and forget and push it ALL under the rug. AND remain in the situation with "Sally" doing the same stuff.

Were they that desperate for a female singer in the church? Is it ever RIGHT to accept the person Satan sends you?

I think they didn't want to see it, because they were friends... And age appeared to have a great personality.

So after we moved I went back to the church to retrieve some things we had forgotten. I saw Sally's car among just a few cars in the
parking lot, so I didn't go in. I felt anxious because I was thinking Sally is now part of the nucleus of the leadership of the church. That was my thinking.

Another time I went to return some hymnals, I talked with the pastor's wife at the parsonage. She said, "We'd just about had your husband trained, then all this happened". I felt she was minimizing the problem and not recognizing the threat to our marriage. I was sort of stunned when I heard this, that WE had put them in a pinch! She also mentioned that some girls have attractions to certain types of men, like heads of companies, etc... Leadership types... Uuugh! More minimization! I left in shock...

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