Today I look back and this is what I see...

The travesty of the whole situation is that before all this happened I trusted my husband completely. He was like gold to me. I never worried about him cheating on me or doing anything like that. It literally never entered my mind or heart that something like this could ever happen. To me, no, not to me... maybe someone else...

It was one of the most wonderful relationships ever: my relationship with my husband. I was zealous and highly interested in beingnpart of the gospel going out into the world. He was my partner: the love of my life, like gold!

So when we had our first baby a door closed (at a place where we were
ministering to kids) and so we waited. A few months later a door seemingly
opened up at this church.

We arrived zealous and excited to minister but difficulties began soon afterwards.

Attacks from Satan came in the form of opposition and disputing from certain people and situations at church.

Slowly, tensions began to develop between our pastor and my husband, to an extent. It was nothing, though, like what was to come. So let's say that we were weakened and buffetted. A little spiritual bruising, so to speak.

Then, one day, this woman and her husband joined the church...
I think, at the time, we were so discouraged from the circumstances, and such (I was also dealing with my own junk from growing up that
was difficult) that we had no way of understanding how to take on more. We didn't have our "armor" on, spiritually speaking. Our guard was not up.

Another aspect was that this was not a one-time event. This specific experience was a long series of repeated attacks on our marriage that occured over about 14 months! It was a web from Satan that was sticky and hard to free yourself from. I still find bits and pieces now and then that I have to give over to the Lord.

You can refer to the book: "When Godly People Do Ungodly Things" by Beth Moore. She explains these webs vividly and clearly describes it as being an attack from Satan.

Until next time...